Change in all things is sweet
- Aristotle
- Aristotle
Over the 3 years of marriage and 4 years of being together, Josh and I have endured a lot of change. Some expected, some unexpected, some wanted, and some unwanted. However, through all the change it has brought us together and stronger and more in love. Although change is inevitable in everyone's lives it is really how you adapt and react to it that creates who you are. I tend to think of myself as open minded and ready to take on new adventures. Yet, I am not as quick to adapt as I would probably tell you I am. I do take time to get used to the ideas of something new (especially if it is unexpected) but altogether I always look for the positive side of things!
One of the biggest changes I had to adapt to was realizing that I was going to be a stay at home mom. This was a decision that Josh and I came to together and I am ever so grateful that I have had this opportunity. However, it was a very difficult adjustment to me. I had my first official job when I was 15 years old, worked throughout college to pay for my bills & started a career immediately after graduation. Working was something I knew, something I was good at, and something that I felt defined who I was. 99% of my friends who were already moms were in fact stay at home moms. I will admit that I was judgmental to the point of not understanding why some of them had house cleaners or went out and shopped like crazy when they were not bringing in a paycheck. A huge part of this was ignorance on my part because I obviously did not know what it was like to take care of a newborn. I also did not think about how not everyone has "a perfect baby" who sleeps on a schedule, is never sick, and does as they are told! I never realized the time and patience it was going to take to raise a little one...especially the patience it took to raise a little one who had acid reflux! Anyway, I am getting off track a bit but my point is that being a mom is a difficult job, but at the same time a very easy job. I get the chance to teach her things, I get to be the one to comfort her when she falls, I get to be the one who dances around the living room being extra silly and making her full bellied laugh all day long.
Now if you ask me if I miss my job the answer would be yes. Some of you may be surprised by this answer because my particular job I was not in love with. I did however love being responsible for projects and teaching people how to complete tasks or how to become stronger in the business world. I did obviously love bringing home a paycheck and being an equal contributor in the household. I did love all the relationships and friendships I created with those I worked with. Those are the things I miss but I would not give up one second of the time or the days that I have spent with Harper over the past year.
The other change that has been difficult for me to adjust to is the fact that in 8 days my little girl will be one year old. ONE YEAR OLD? How in the world did that happen?! She has gone from this helpless little bundle of 7lb7oz 19 1/2 in. long who could not even hold her head up to this 20lb 27 in long giant personality. She has opinions and thoughts (although they are simple) and she has the ability to melt hearts! I am so amazed that an entire year has passed by but I am so proud of the little girl she is and I think that Josh and I have done an absolutely phenomenal job raising her thus far. I can only imagine how much faster things will go when little Paxton arrives to add to the craziness. I will make sure to stop and cuddle him every moment I can because once they become mobile, the cuddling stops! I know it will come back some day with Harper but we find ourselves cherishing the sick days when she lays her head on our shoulders and is a bit more needy.
Last but not least the change that has gone along with my 3 years of marriage has been the best change of all. From my very few first initial interactions with Josh, I knew my life would be ever changed by him. There was something different about him and something different about myself with him. He made me more bold, more confident, and more in love than I had ever imagined. As each experience has been thrown our way with change, it truly has only made our marriage better. I am not saying things have always been perfect or that we have never had our down times. What I am saying is that we really do grow together more when we face a hard situation and realize that sometimes we are the only things we have to lean on to get through a rough patch. I am thankful to have him as my husband and partner. I am excited for the future change we will experience together. I am excited to teach our children to embrace the unknown and sometimes there really is a silver lining in those dark cloudy days. My life is not perfect but I know that I have all I need to keep going with a smile on my face!
Speaking of change, little Paxton is now big enough where I can feel him kicking in my belly. Oh what a good feeling it is! =)
One of the biggest changes I had to adapt to was realizing that I was going to be a stay at home mom. This was a decision that Josh and I came to together and I am ever so grateful that I have had this opportunity. However, it was a very difficult adjustment to me. I had my first official job when I was 15 years old, worked throughout college to pay for my bills & started a career immediately after graduation. Working was something I knew, something I was good at, and something that I felt defined who I was. 99% of my friends who were already moms were in fact stay at home moms. I will admit that I was judgmental to the point of not understanding why some of them had house cleaners or went out and shopped like crazy when they were not bringing in a paycheck. A huge part of this was ignorance on my part because I obviously did not know what it was like to take care of a newborn. I also did not think about how not everyone has "a perfect baby" who sleeps on a schedule, is never sick, and does as they are told! I never realized the time and patience it was going to take to raise a little one...especially the patience it took to raise a little one who had acid reflux! Anyway, I am getting off track a bit but my point is that being a mom is a difficult job, but at the same time a very easy job. I get the chance to teach her things, I get to be the one to comfort her when she falls, I get to be the one who dances around the living room being extra silly and making her full bellied laugh all day long.
Now if you ask me if I miss my job the answer would be yes. Some of you may be surprised by this answer because my particular job I was not in love with. I did however love being responsible for projects and teaching people how to complete tasks or how to become stronger in the business world. I did obviously love bringing home a paycheck and being an equal contributor in the household. I did love all the relationships and friendships I created with those I worked with. Those are the things I miss but I would not give up one second of the time or the days that I have spent with Harper over the past year.
The other change that has been difficult for me to adjust to is the fact that in 8 days my little girl will be one year old. ONE YEAR OLD? How in the world did that happen?! She has gone from this helpless little bundle of 7lb7oz 19 1/2 in. long who could not even hold her head up to this 20lb 27 in long giant personality. She has opinions and thoughts (although they are simple) and she has the ability to melt hearts! I am so amazed that an entire year has passed by but I am so proud of the little girl she is and I think that Josh and I have done an absolutely phenomenal job raising her thus far. I can only imagine how much faster things will go when little Paxton arrives to add to the craziness. I will make sure to stop and cuddle him every moment I can because once they become mobile, the cuddling stops! I know it will come back some day with Harper but we find ourselves cherishing the sick days when she lays her head on our shoulders and is a bit more needy.
Last but not least the change that has gone along with my 3 years of marriage has been the best change of all. From my very few first initial interactions with Josh, I knew my life would be ever changed by him. There was something different about him and something different about myself with him. He made me more bold, more confident, and more in love than I had ever imagined. As each experience has been thrown our way with change, it truly has only made our marriage better. I am not saying things have always been perfect or that we have never had our down times. What I am saying is that we really do grow together more when we face a hard situation and realize that sometimes we are the only things we have to lean on to get through a rough patch. I am thankful to have him as my husband and partner. I am excited for the future change we will experience together. I am excited to teach our children to embrace the unknown and sometimes there really is a silver lining in those dark cloudy days. My life is not perfect but I know that I have all I need to keep going with a smile on my face!
Speaking of change, little Paxton is now big enough where I can feel him kicking in my belly. Oh what a good feeling it is! =)
