Sore loser.

^^Three cheers during our morning green smoothies! It's Pax's new favorite thing to say in the mornings "cheeees" it adds a little fun to an otherwise blah beverage. =)  (p.s. hes FINALLY starting to talk! At least in the form that a mama can understand, yaaaaaaaay!)

^^My day starts with a green smothie most mornings (sometimes you just have to have actual substantial food like eggs and toast. Mmmmmm. But my new favorite morning treat is iced coffee! Why have I been missing out on this? I have never been much of a coffee drinker, well really a caffinated beverage person at all. I have a lot of energy in the mornings and I never really thought to ramp that up with adding in some coffee but I have discovered that mixing 1/2 unsweetened almond milk with coffee is the newest & grandest thing to my mornings! I make it, add a few cubes of ice and stick it in the freezer while getting the kids fed and its perfectly chilled by the time the kitchen is all cleaned up. Plus putting it in a mason jar just makes it even more fun. I am pretty sure I am late on the whole "mason jars are the bomb" but seriously they are. You can use them for EVERYTHING!!

Onto the harsh reality with myself. I have become a sore loser. As I stated before I am not much of a competitor and I don't get all crazy when competing against somebody or something but daaaaaang this whole not winning the fitness competition at my gym has really gotten me in a funk. I did get "honorable mention" but to me that's just a swift kick to the you know what. The first place winner lost 34 lbs and won one freaking thousand dollars?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? Which 34 pounds is a lot, a lot more than my measly 10, but I feel like where we were compared to in body type that my 10 could hold up to an overweight individuals 30. Any who, second place lost 30 pounds and I am not sure how much they won and then third place was a lady who already won during the last competition and was at like 132 pounds at the start and somehow managed to do better than I did (I think this is where I am really having a hard time thinking she beat me). I guess money is a huge motivator for me these days. I was going to be really proud of myself for winning some fun money so I could do something for Josh and I that I worked hard at earning. Josh works crazy hard to provide for us but I still feel bad for not being a contributor with money.

My issue now is that I have become unmotivated to wake up and keep trucking along to stay fit. I am not looking to lose any more weight. I am sure I could but hey a girl has to realize at some point that ice cream and wine are necessities in life. Plus I am also loving this whole sleeping in until 7:15 and not having to wash my hair every day. =). I'm just being real guys. I am still going around 3 times a week but the past few weeks its only been twice or so. On a positive note we are doing well with eating at home and have really worked on eliminating a lot of processed things in the house. We don't really keep cereal, chips, processed snacks in the house anymore. This has also changed the way the kids snack too. They are asking for more fruits and veg as opposed to boxed items. I do buy the Annie's organic cheddar bunnies & graham bunnies when we are on the go but other than that we cut out the cereal bars, fruit snacks, etc. We have also primarily switched over to unsweetened Almond milk for the kids and our smoothies and such over cow milk. It's surprisingly tasty! We still do and always will have popcorn and some sort of sweet treat around though. Again, its just a necessary thing around here.

Although today is super rainy and we are possibly expecting snow tonight (I know, right? It's ridiculous) it has been really nice and sunny this past week. I am using the excuse of walks to the park and mowing the yard as my "work outs" for when I don't get my butt up and to the gym. The sunshine has really motivated me to super clean the house though. Spring cleaning is underway my friends! Yaaaay. I have even discovered that I can take of the cushion covers on my couch and wash them. This is amazing to me because now I can just wash them instead of constantly covering my pretty couch in blankets b/c of the kids and dogs. It's well worth the extra effort. Trust me!

This post is all over the place but that is kind of where my brain is this morning, a little crazy and a little fuzzy. I am hoping when I realize that summer is around the corner and I will want to put a swimsuit on to take the kids to the neighborhood pool most days that I will get that fire back to consistently wake up and go. I am blaming it on "burning myself out" and giving myself a break. For a while there I was a tad crazy and obsessed and I will admit it is nice to be a bit more laid back about things. =) Happy Thursday! Let's hope the sunshine makes it debut again very soon!!