In a funk.

I do not know what is going on with me this week but I am just not feeling myself. I am not motivated to clean, cook, work out, leave my house and just not feeling my normal uppity self. Basically I am just in a funk.

It has been one of those moods where it seems like a good cry will possibly solve all my woes or maybe eating an entire jar of cookie butter perhaps? I am unfortunately out of cookie butter but I definitely ordered myself a large pepperoni and mushroom pizza from Papa John's the other day for lunch. I can say that I have never done that before. I stuffed my face with pizza, bread sticks and a delicious Root Beer to finish it off (all while watching my DVRed episode of the Bachelorette). I didn't get anywhere near eating everything I ordered but I still felt guilty for eating so poorly.

This past weekend J started working on a home improvement project of painting our built in bookcases in the living room white. I was skeptical how it would look but I am SO excited how it is turning out. Hence I say turning out. I have not completed the project (remember my funk?). For a neat freak like myself I am literally twitching every time I see the uncompleted project,yet I am having ZERO motivation to finish it. See my predicament?

Anywho, I did go to a fun moms meeting this morning with my friend Anna. It was really something wonderful to sit and converse with other mama's to share our stories and advice where needed. I am excited to start meeting up with these ladies once a month or so to just have a little adult time. Both P & H did a really good job at the nursery and of course H ended up being her outsider self and playing alone while everyone else gushed over what a happy guy Pax is. So funny how different those two are.

Oh and another thing, I am beginning to think I need to adorn Harp with bows and pearls and anything/everything girlie. I cannot tell you how many strangers think she is a little boy. It probably doesn't help that I keep her hair shorter and its usually unruly looking due to her crazy sleep habits. She does wear Croc shoes all the time and is typically pretty messy from playing and/or eating. We went to Sonic this afternoon because a Diet Cherry Limeade can usually perk up an uneventful afternoon, and the guy working the drive through saw her in the back seat and says "Oh, little guy doesn't look too happy". Me being me, who I never want to make someone else feel embarrassed or bad about anything simply stated, "Yeah, it's post nap time, we don't always wake up very happy." Then he states "Ahhh, post nap blues. I know how that goes. Can I give the little guy an ice cream cone?" Well of course I couldn't deny her of that, especially when she was just called a little guy!! I just don't want my little cutie to be seen as a little boy her whole childhood.

Anyway, that is my ramble for today. I know I haven't posted in a few weeks and this is not necessarily the most upbeat post but it is what I am feeling so I felt it was appropriate to write it. Tomorrow will be better, I have set the goal to finish my painting tomorrow since my dad and step mom are coming up this weekend which is going to be oh so fun. AND J & I will be running in the Color Run on Saturday morning so that will be a colorful, sweaty, crazy fun kid free event that we get to go do together! Wish us luck =).

Happy Wednesday everybody, hope you are feeling a bit more upbeat than myself.