This guy is just the coolest little dude ever! He seriously smiles all the time and is just the happiest baby! I love his uber bald head and his multiple chins and big ol' gummy smile.
I am so excited to say that he is FINALLY sleeping through the night!! I actually asked this sleep consultant out of Tulsa on FB a few questions about what I could do to get him to sleep all night. He was consistently waking around 4:30 in the morning genuinely hungry. I knew that he was capable of going all night because he had done it a few times before. With him having reflux and just being a much bigger baby than Harper I was hesitant to let him just cry it out. Plus his cry is not the most pleasant sound ever. Seriously, he sounds like a screeching cat or something. I am not sure how this happened because Harper has this awesome deep raspy voice and cry so it is pretty tolerable (all things considered), but Paxton squeals, screams and screeches and it's not so awesome. Anyway, the sleep consultant suggested that I cluster feed him in the evenings to help bulk up his calories before bed to see if it will allow him to go longer at night. This means that I breast feed him at 5:30, give him rice cereal around 6:00, then right before I put him to bed at 7:00 I breast feed him again. I am also still doing the dream feed around 9:30 but I think I am going to try and drop that next week. =(
It is so bittersweet thinking about dropping the dream feed. First of all it will make me nervous that he will start waking up again at night. Second, it is just the sweetest moment of the day that I have with him. He is eating while mostly asleep and his body is so relaxed all swaddled up in my arms, breathing in and out so slow with his eyes closed. Even after he is finished eating I tend to just hold him for a minute or two. It is the perfect way to end my night before I head off to bed as well. It is a perfect moment of just him and I.
As I was dream feeding him the other night the thought came to me that once I stop doing this feed with him it could be the last time I get to do this. I mean we have 1 boy and 1 girl and are very happy with this. But my heart breaks just a little each time I realize that he is getting a little bigger and soon enough the sweet cuddles will stop, the bonding time while breast feeding will end, and my little baby will continue to grow and become a big boy. Each time I go through his closet and put up the clothes that don't fit any more I just get so sad that I will potentially be done with babies for the rest of my life! Now I do NOT love being pregnant, having to lose all the baby weight, c-sections, stretch marks, etc etc etc, BUT I do love the outcome of it all and having a sweet little baby that is mine. I am so lucky to have one of each and to have them seriously be the best kids ever (biased I know). As of now we do not plan on having any more children (J is definitely happy with the two). We shall see in a few years but I will say that as they do get older they get so much more fun.
Well I am off to go and wake up my little dude so I can see his smiley face and take them to the store to grab some things before our company comes this weekend!! We will have a house full of 4 adults, 5 kids under the age of 3 and potentially 3 dogs! Happy Memorial Weekend everyone!
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