Dear Harper,

My dearest Harper,

This week has by far been the hardest week of my entire life. You are a sick little girl and it is breaking my heart. I have taken you to the doctor three times in four days and more and more things keep popping up. First it was the flu. Then it was the stomach flu along with an ear infection. Now it is RSV bronchiolitis along with the ear infection. You are having to do breathing treatments because you have not been receiving enough oxygen to your body because of this virus, and you absolutely hate them.

What I wanted to tell you was that I love you more than I thought it was humanly possible to love someone or something. To see your tears, your sad sleepy eyes and not having seen your smile in days is tearing me apart. I know this is not a major illness or anything that is life threatening but I can not imagine my life without you. You have taught me to be a better person and you have changed my entire perspective on life. I may not dress as "stylish" as I used to but all I want is to play with you around the house in our cozies. I may not vacation as often as I used to but I am so sad when I am not with you every day. I may not bring home a paycheck to help contribute to the bills but I would give up all the money in the world to simply spend time with you.

You have also made me love your dad more than I thought I could love my spouse. To see him care for you, play with you, and be an amazing example of what a husband should be to a wife makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with him every day.

I do not want you to grow up too fast. I want you to enjoy who you are, what you can do, and the things around you at every moment. It is easy to get wrapped up in what may be next but please stay a little girl as long as you can. I look forward to continuing our relationship as you grow. I can only hope you love me half as much as I love you. I can only pray that you grow up to have a relationship with me as I do with my mom. I know that she has taught me how to love, how to be selfless, and how to be the best mother that I can be. Thank you for being my daughter. I hope you feel better soon. Just know that your dad and I will be there for you with all the cuddles, kisses, hugs, and shoulders to cry on, and a listening ear for your entire life.

With all my heart,
mama